I am `ME `HIM `HER

2007-04-15T11:33:00.000-07:00

what the... haiz
im tired lah k.
im tired of scoldings,of stress,of worries..
im tired okay.
okay.
i got one magic story to tell.
one fine day fell asleep in bed wif baju kurong( alek jempotan,too tired n having a headache)
woke up at 11+took hp out of pocket n slid under pillow.
go toilet n bathe.
finish bath,go back to bedroom,look at pillow,moved it away nn......
POOF ! hp GONE !
BY THE WIND !
fuck lahh..
i lost my fone.
correction.
husbands fon.
matilah matilah matilah.
so asked mum n bro if dey took,said NO n searched my room wif me.
no. hp still missing.
asked if ayah took,no.
ibu said he dint even go inside my room.
now wat !
i koled husband n told.
n got scolding instead.
actually he correct la.
i nvr listen to him n go put hp under pillow.
poor poor hubby.
n i cant sleep.
WHERE THE FUCK IS THE FONE !

2007-04-09T04:24:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOD
tomorrow.
i repeat.
TOMORROW.
read my fingers
T-O-M-O-R-R-O-W
syf lah.
S-Y-F
SingaporeYouthFestival.
S-I-N-G-A-P-O-R-E
im freaking out man.
damn it.
im gonna have a nervous breakdown.
oh my God.
IM GONNA HAVE A BITCH FIT !
yeah..
tomorow is d big BIG day..
tomorow is the day when we show our best
tomorow is when we show the rest of singapore what we're made of
tomorow is when we show what we can do.
tomorow is when we show the rest what we have been doing,filling our afternoons up
tomorow is when we show how much we appreciate our teachers in charge,our president,our seniors.
for tomorrow is going to be their last n best dance in their secondary school life.
damn.
we're gonna miss u guys.
no matter what,i still see us as one famly.
rest assured.
we will nvr forget u guys n wad u hve done for n with us through all this years.
the pain,the lafters,the cries,the gila2s..
gonna miss all dat guys.
we'll miss you.
n we love u.

MAZLAN
FAISAL
FADZIL
AFIQAH
AIN
AINY
NAREENI
KHAFIFAH
SYAFIQAH
well,they call themselves SCHOOLMATES.
if im not wrong
n theyre cool people.
way cool yah.
good luck to all for tomorrow
lets dance ourselves to a gold yah.
lets reach out for it.
muackz !
love MLDDS

2007-03-26T06:05:00.000-07:00

*fcuking addicted to Deloba Blueberry buscuits.
(look fer it anywhere under d sun kay)

late fer skewl again today. was lyk 5 freaking pathetic mins late
oh yeah. im gonna get suspended real soon.
so after filing up dat damn form,headed straight to class n found only saras n her chinese-best fren in class all set to go out.
so i asked "go where?"
dey say go gym...
yabadabadoo. looked ard n saw nobody looking,tore dwn my fcuking skirt(exagerating)(underneath got p.e shorts one la) n poof !
in a blink af an eye i was down at d gym. dey oredi assembled n ms noe was toking.
okay okay were late. so wat.
scanned ard d bloody pathetic gym n saw dat cutey face.
haha. u noe who.
wann la ! who else is cuter den her man.
so d boys do dos long jumps while we girls work out our muscles!(thats a lie)
had LOLs all day long with wann.
who's d next beyonce? hah !
fade d champion !
WHATEVER
blahblahblah.
chit chat wif wann till eng work oso nvr do den kena satayback in class n finish up.
ok lor.
hello. dis is peanuts man !
wahahahaha. tok big tok kok.
fcuk lah.
after skewl,i tot my life was gonna b over wif gaga waiting patiently fer me tuh finish skewl n waited fer me to do "run n hug" routine again.
wtf.
n guess who i saw ! out there,under d sun,standing lyk an "angel"....
was WAWA!! MY BELOVED DARLING !
dunnoe i her darling onot lah.
so offered abit of chewing gum here n there n a stick of death .
n i bid my goodbye. toodles !
oi havent finish lah!
so had my day wif gaga..
okay la! i did miss him la okay even though he abit GAGA
had o lovely...wonderfulllll day...
n my eyes r burning to go tuh sleep.
he gave me some bloody pills which made my eyes red n eventually threatens me to drop my head on this bloody keyboard if i dun go do sumting.
Mr/Miss Brain tells me i HAVE to go eat.
yah.
den we'll consider sleeping yah.
after 2-3 hours of damn phone conversations as if i was one of those i-robots can tahan lama2 one.
im not made up of battery la gaga.
dun u understand.
gaga betol.
okay.
toodles! (for real;off to eat my dinner darlings)

2007-03-24T10:53:00.000-07:00

im looking thru myspace ryt now..
n im looking at dis beautiful-gorgeous-sweet-jambu-stylish-awesome-outoftheworld-fantastic-perfect girl.. my gawsh. shee's gaddamn beautiful la siak !
lyk. i mean. totally BEAUTIFUL JAMBU GILER BABI SIAK. actually nvr seen anyone dat preety n stylish before.
n hey. guess wad.
jealousy is burning.
i noe i shudn be.
but she's evryting i wanna be!
FUCK !
i cant help it !
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cibai

2007-03-24T08:45:00.000-07:00

n for d first time in my life i found out my garnny's birthday was today ! march 24 ! hah !
so woke up at 1+ today,bathed n got redi fer ngaji.
ayah ngaji was longgest. hey ! he took a bloody half an hour to finish d rest of d Iqra' 6 !
heloh,Mr Father,other ppl oso wanna ngaji leh.
n we had to get going to celebrate granny's birthday.
so,went to woodland teh tarik cafe or sumthing n ate.
had cereal prawn,something-lyk-popiah-but-more-lyk-tahu-texture-ting-filled-wif-prawn thingy,fried rice,small chicken tingy in red ting lyk sauce n black pepper crab.
was quite farn le overall kaykay.
food was delicious too.
hepi birthday granny. long live granny.
muah !

2007-03-24T08:21:00.000-07:00

ok.
i wanna share my thursday.
so,went to skewl as usual n had a wonderful,beautifuk,fcuking boring day without anyone (mimmah n mush nvr cum !) sitting beside me n there was amanda n dat yulin sitting next to me during physics.
n dey fell asleep at last. hah. how exciting.
so.. after skewl ends,head off to my ususal "run n hug" routine to dat gaga.n finds dat he is bloody damn fcuking sick.
fcuk him lah.
alamak. if dat gaga diliberately duwan me go ML juz say so la! no need so drama ryt !
so since gaga fainted,tot i make him find me caring n i brought him to sk poly. blablabla.
all i cud tink of was "i dun care if im late,im still cuming for mlddseven if dis motherfcuker tries to stop me"
n yes ! my predictions were true ! he told me to take MC. n i said NO. yes. a bloody damn moddafcuking big HELL NO.
N he had to give in to me,eventually.
hey,cikgu,if ure sumhow reading this,xcuse me fer my language n im sorry if i lied. no matter wad im still with u guys even if u kick me out. its juz dat im too bloody soft to make myself happy n well,ending up unhappy myself. wadever.
yah so we took d obt redi n i was feeling lyk taking a bloody cab to skel coz i was fcuking late.
when we juz step outside,walah ! hey! it was raining ! n there was a comotion ! haha !
okay,here goes.
bapok : eh ! aku bapok2 pon aku kuat tau ! eh pompan sundal kau ketawa! kau trn ah orchard jmpe member2 aku mati kau ! kau jage ah eh pompan sial ! kau sini ah lawan nan aku !
couple :(does noting and juz stare at him/her with scared face)
bapok :(walks away) CIBAI !

hah. so fierce eh kak. lek uh. so headed off to cp to take bus to skewl and another attemp to stop me frm going ML failed. he wanted to eat ferst.
fuck off u gaga.
i said we couldnt make it to eat so he made a long face n acted all angry but i dint care so there we go. off to skewl. n hey,i really dint regret not coming man !

okay. so 2 weeks left.
hell yeah. A BLOODY GODDAMN MODDAFCUKING 2 WEEKS to d day.
im scared. fuck. i am scared !

2007-03-12T07:37:00.000-07:00

Listen
to the song here in my heart melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release
Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened
There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
All 'cause you won't listen
ListenI am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feelingI'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on If you don't, if you won't
Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete
Now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I got to find my own - my own

to my sayang,muhm hafiz b rahmat

pls LISTEN to me

2007-03-07T08:34:00.000-08:00

yoley yoley yolooooo

looks lyk i dint have tuhh wait fer 14.
it came on..6 ke 5?
dunnoe la..
too soon.
man. u dunnoe how much a person mean to u until theyre gone.
so true man.

wad m i toking ?
i shudn b longing for a person lyk him ryt?
yeah. but den.
i'll get over it

2007-02-26T06:08:00.000-08:00

and and and

hepi hepi hepi bdae sofeeyah !
love ya gurl !

MAY U HAVE A BRITE FUTURE AND SUCCEED IN EVRYTHING U DO!

N REMEMBER

NEVER GIVE UP ON THE THINGS THAT MAKE U SMILE,SWEETY !

2007-02-11T07:57:00.000-08:00

this tatoo thingy
man. im sorry guys.
haiz.
i dint noe wad i was tinking.
tankiewk to all d people who tried to make me realise dat tatooing was wrong.
tanks to devil i did it.
tanks to myself i did it.
i did it to myself.
pls forgive me..
as i do love u ppl..
i dint tell u
because i dint want u tuh hate me
i dint wan u tuh be stressed up all abt me
i dint wan u tuh wurry
because i was scared..
if u ppl wud juz let me prove it dat ive changed,frm good to bad,bad to worse,worse to even worser,even worser to very good again
yeah. it takes tym for a person to chaNGE.
ESP. LYK ME.
Thanks to agent,im able to do all this.
u guys noe wad we went thru or wad we are going through?
no u guys dun have the slightest idea.
i was poisoned by words frm othr ppl.
my mind was poisoned by.. evryone else except him.
n i love hym.
evryone thinks bad abt him.
wthELL?
n i almost broke up with him.
if i did.. korg akan benci aku lebeh ar.
banyak benda korg tak tau.
korg takya tau,n aku taknk menyusahkn korg agpon k.
sesungguhnye aku da takd sape2 lagi.
kalau korg da taknk pandang aku sdare korg agik,takpe..
aku takkn lupe ar. mase2 kte bersama..
waktu kecil2..
pai skg.. seme benda bikin same2..
tapi syg
aku sala campor.
aku akn ttp syg korg ar. mcm abg kandung aku snirik.
u noe wad u gusy mean to me anot?
huh?
i love u guys so much ok.
i hate losing d ppl i love..
one.. by one..
lyk this.
i have no one to blame.
yes. except me.
maybe,i deserve wad im getting luh.
well,i hope u guys well,may ure future be bright n may u b happy all d tym aite.
dun wurry abt me anymore.
im a big girl now..
if u need me,ill still be there fer u guys
even if ive changed frm d outside,frm d inside.
im still NURUL FATIN BTE ANUAR.
d small girl sitting beside u in dat pic in ur wallet..
tankiewk abg yus,tankiewk abg an
for all d things uve done for me
i dunnoe how im gonna balas jasa korg alek..
muackzz !
love u guys ferever

2007-01-29T03:19:00.000-08:00

hohohohohhohoooooo
hi evryone.
cayang u all.
today is monday.
n tomorow is tuesday.
WOW !!
amazing....
300107 !

2007-01-26T23:16:00.000-08:00

=)
am back.
270107,Saturday,3.16 pm

woke up at 11+
got up to toilet,look ard,mums not home.
where cud she be?
dunnoe.
half an hour toilet session.
got out of there n found mum juz got home.
from where?
pasar.
grab a box uf lexus cheese buiscuits to room.
ate n ate.
3 packets.
msg-ed Mr Agent.
played hp games.
got out of room.
ate macD big breakfast.
helped mum wash clothes.
lipat clothes.
n den play more hp games.
n now here i am.
post today is totally dry?
my day is totaly dry.
so ever so dryly i post.
tomorow is sunday.
another dry day.
wtFUCK

2007-01-23T23:30:00.000-08:00

yala2 new skin la.
hello ppl.
im still alive.
wow.
k bye